Movie Quotes....

  • Data, data, data. I cannot make bricks without clay. -- Sherlock Holmes
  • At the temple, there is a poem called "Loss" carved into the stone. It has three words, but the poet has scratched them out. You cannot read Loss, only feel it. -- Memoirs of a Geisha
  • Skadoosh -- Kung Fu Panda 1 & 2

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Moving and Marriage

So as many know, it's been a hell of a few years for me and my family.

The gypsy and I parted ways. I graduated from school and got a job as a massage therapist and then found my best friend again. You see, he'd been missing from my life for the last 5-6 years.

Out of the blue he popped back into my life and made it complete. The best part? I got to make him my husband!! That means that he's stuck with me for enough time to drive him absolutely crazy!!!!

No, seriously though... I'm so happy!!

In October of 2015 he contacted me and begged for my forgiveness and to be friends again. After a month of talking he "popped" the question via text. Well, after I picked my phone up off the floor and stopped freaking out. I replied that in order to see both my reaction and my response, the next time I got that question it had better be in person.

Guess who got the surprise of her life on Christmas day when he showed up to drop to a knee and propose?? Yep! This girl did!!!

We got married on Jan 15th and now, just over a month later... I'm in NV again!

The good part is that I'm here at the perfect time to re-acclimate to the weather before it becomes the unbearable heat of summer and the not so good part is that I'm going to have to unpack and rearrange a very full garage!

Suddenly thinking that I own way to much crap and need to downsize drastically. Oh well! I've got time to do that with, since I'm waiting for the licensing stuff to go through for my new state.

Until then, I'll keep everyone posted. Keep watching for new pics of the adventures and know that I miss you all but I'm looking forward to the changes and fun here in NV!

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Happiness is?!

I have been officially challenged to find a "happy place" for myself.

I have been living for others for so long and cannot really remember what it feels like to live for myself.

And for the last couple of months I've been wracking my brain trying to figure out what I do that I absolutely love!

You want to know what I've found out??? I love to read; I like to do handwork, but have found that it can get a little irritating so I do have to put it down and walk away from it; I love to give, and receive, massages; I love my kids (but that's part of the "need to find something other than someone else to live for/have fun for"); I love to play billiards/pool, although I haven't been out to play in years. I love to sit and watch Netflix and I've found a couple of new shows that I've now got to wait for the new seasons to be uploaded/updated... or I've got to get a HULU account so I can watch them sooner.I used to love sitting at the computer typing and pouring my feelings out here.

Not too sure why that last one has changed, but I've sat down so often to write and ended up with writer's block and cannot write anything. Or worse, I've written and when I've reread it...it's not worth posting because it's just full of pain and hate and I don't want that out there. So I've deleted it to start over and that's when the writer's block hits again.

I've also been thinking a lot about being single again and while I'm still not entirely sure I like the "aloneness" of it all, it does have it's positives. The biggest is that I'm not required to actually have to put out every time someone says "hey, hey, hey".  If I don't want to do that... I don't have to and I don't have to feel obligated to even put up with that. I don't have to feel guilt, nor pressure. It's actually very refreshing.

On the other hand, it's also a little bit lonely. I don't have that companionship, or friendship, or whatever you want to call it. 

I guess if I wanted to, I could just go out and "find" it again, but I know that what I'm looking for in that situation is not permanent and could end up with my getting hurt, or stuck in that situation again.

No Thank You Very Much!

I guess I'll just keep improving on myself and let the rest fall into place when it's supposed to. That sounds like a good plan, right?